Category Archives: Contemplation

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Is love the willingness to hurt?

I have been pondering this question for some time now. I continue only proffer some thoughts. Love cannot be defined as the willingness to hurt. Because love is so much more. We can say that love accepts the possibility of hurt or that we will be vulnerable to hurt. But love does not will hurt in any form or shape, neither for self nor for another. It accepts the risk but it does not make hurt its purpose.

Love will work through hurt, it will work towards healing of the hurt. Love never stands on its own as something done towards another only but always brings the lover and beloved in unity. If there is hurt of self as a consequence of love, the love will love self and bring healing. I cannot see that love is ever willing to hurt another as an act of love… It might be to hurt somebody that is a threat to the one loved. The latter is a challenging moral space that needs deep understanding rather than broad strokes of opinion.

But for me the important principle is that love wills to heal not to hurt. The willingness to hurt is to bring healing. When we love somebody and that person rejects our love or dies and is unable to return love then love brings healing to the self so that we can love without hurt. If we love and the one we love suffer for any reason then our love is willing to accept hurt in empathy with the beloved. But even then it will to bring healing to the situation irrespective of how desperate the situation. Again love might accept hurt temporarily but it will is towards healing harmony and restoration.

If recovery on the physical plane is impossible then love extends itself beyond time and space limitations… Love might seek to comfort the beloved and reduce the hurt in the physical and strengthen the mental to best cope with hurt…. But live is never satisfied with hurt and never the friend of hurt.

When looking from a spiritual perspective love extends itself to bring healing through the deeper forces of karma that operates beyond the boundaries of physical existence.

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What is the true self?

The self without masks or pretense. Neither the doer, nor the thinker, the true self is found in the observer. The true self is not found in ordinary everyday memories but hidden in the memory of the astral field.
The true self is not defined by the many i’s we give expression to, in all the roles we play every day . The observer is the true self for the observer records every action and intent in meticulous detail. Not just every action, thought and emotion is captured but also the function of life within each cell within the body.
The true self has its own moral compass borrowed from the divine…. It is the authentic self within that never sleeps and which is always ready and present to guide forward from its own fount of wisdom. The true self manifests as the impulse before an action, the rhythm of breathing, the spark between synapses in the nervous system.
It cannot be lied to nor can it be deceived and yet it is that one part within that stands free from judgement, complete in perfection yet still clothing itself with new experiences. The true self judges every action and thought against the law of love. It collaborates with the Oversoul to manifest every thought into being so that conscious man can experience the result. Slowly it raises the integrity, clarity and coherence of being to a refined expression of a creative spirit driven by noble thoughts and constructive action.
The true self is without fear and beyond the space time limitation, without pain nor hurt. When the consequences of the doer’s actions or the thinker’s thoughts result in pain and suffering, then it is the authentic self that comes to bring the courage to persist, the consolation to hope and the creative inspiration to find new ways.
The true self is met and allowed to express itself when we strengthen our thoughts with concentration and visualization and when we find meaning in deep silent contemplation. Then thought can become still and the observer can speak with the voice of Intuition. Then the true self will bring an enriching illumination to our inner world so that we can perceive things as they are and as they are meant to be.
That is the awakening of the true self within, calling it to its rightful place to guide our thoughts and action to be the creative, inspired individuals we are, with the insight to contribute endlessly toward the expression of unity, perfection and beauty that beams a pervasive love outward and breaths within wisdom and understanding.
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Contemplating death

Death is eminent, an inescapable fact. A moment when a last breath leaves the body and frees the soul. Will that last breath be one of peace or a struggle clinging still on a hope for one more breath?  Will death be a redeemer or an untimely guest?
Death has passed me by many times, who am I to complain when my turn comes. Nobody is spared from the touch of death. Death is the great equaliser for the rich, the poor, the good and the bad. If it was possible to be spared from death it would have been a curse rather than blessing. The soul needs death to evolve its individuality and bloom fully in its purpose of glory.
On that last moment I will see my life as a whole for a brief instance. Gone will time be and the whole of life will be revealed. I hope then to see my purpose in a new light. There will no longer be the illusion of the material world to veil the truth or obscure understanding. The spiritual world will embrace me as a friend, newly born into its fold. It will be ready to initiate me into the next phase of evolution.
If death comes with pain or shock to rip my soul from its outer shell. I hope it will be a brief wait. If I must suffer then my hope will be that death will not be unkind to me for too long. My plea into the Cosmic is that I live a life that attracts a peaceful death… One unafraid to breath that last breath and free the soul gently from its physical cage. I pray for a death invited by a last smile and peaceful embrace.
I might have time to ponder this life and what I have done with the life I had. What legacy do I leave behind was always a question on my mind. The answer was seldom satisfactory. I have learned much and my gain was mostly selfish in comparison to that which I manage to impart to others. I hope that in death I will not have only regrets of things undone but that I can look back and say: “Life was good”.  I can say that I acted with courage when I ventured out to start my own business, despite its failure after ten years. I can say I was on top of my game when a project of mine won international recognition, yet I did not make the impact I have set to make. I can reflect on my children but their achievement, I can not claim as mine. I can only say I did my best with the insights I had, I take responsibility for each decision that leads to success and failure. My access to advise from a wise sage I lacked but blessings I can count. The Cosmic was graceful towards me and gave me plentiful.
I am grateful for the spiritual search that was ever in my heart. It was the seed and cause for many of my adventures and experience of life. If I had a choice to redo this life I would like to walk the same path … even those small ones that led to a dead end. My personal spiritual quest is what made my life worth living. The real change that happened is not the one I caused in the world… but that change that took place within me.  I am a different person from the one that was born because of the spiritual quest that lead me along. Syncronicity brought me in contact with influences that I will ever be grateful for, for it helped me to define my essence.
If I knew death to be close and the Reaper gave me three wishes before the final blow then this is my wish. First to have the time to speak to all I love and tell them my appreciation for the meaning they brought to my life. Second for one last time to marvel at nature in its most purest form whether it is a wave chrusing on the beach or a waterfall deep inside a mountain. Lastlely that I will be able to meditate and turn within, in the silence of my awareness to just BE ME.
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Negative contemplation

My attention is for a fleeting moment on this topic and then on another. I am still far from being a sage and mastery of life seems only a dream at the moment. Sure I have learned many lessons, and I cope well with a world that sometimes seems malevolent. But when I review my life and what I have achieved or attained…there is little that can be written in the form of real progress. I am like a rudderless ship that is blown around by the wind without having any navigation skills.

Maybe this life was about learning about mistakes, experiencing them. I do not even know if that was truly successful. I do not think I have learned the lessons I am suppose to be learning. What should I have done differently? I truly do not know whether I would have done things differently or lived a better life having done it for a second time. The moment you take a different direction you start learning from the start. We are born with a sense of blindness, unable to see the consequences of our actions into the future and unable to phantom where a small decision will be taking us. We can only read the ramifications of the future in part. I touched lives on a mundane level, but have I ever touched somebody on a deep level.  I find myself on an island, isolated despite a life time of effort to be there for others.

Is my rambling that of a cynic maniac or maybe a depressed soul that does not want to acknowledge it. Maybe I am in denial. Maybe the different pressures slamming against my boat like the waves of a storm just seem so much bigger and beyond me at the moment. My sin for the most part is procrastination….yes, if there is one thing that has time and time again hampered me from progress it is waiting, delaying….

 

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The symbolism of the bee

I was prompted to thinking of the symbol of the bee by a question on a Facebook group. So today has turned into a short reflection on the bee and its symbolism. Since I proudly wear a tattoo of a bee on my bum, the bee always had significance for me personally.
The bee has been venerated by various cultures and schools of thought. Taking time to contemplate the bee quickly reveal why a contemplation of the bee has much value for us to ponder. Such a little insect that has evolved so far in such an amazing way is a source for inspiration to humanity.
In my book of symbols the following is wrtten: In Greek mythology Zweus was raised on milk and honey; the bee was associated with the goddess Artemis and the fertility goddess Diameter, whose priestesses at eleusis were known as “bees”. The symbol of a soul, the bee signified the ability to enter the underworld as Demeter did, and return from it. The honey of bees represented honeyed words of eloquent philosophers such as Plato and Sohocles. Plato asserted the the souls of good and moral men were reincarnated as bees.” and “The bee is a symbol of industry, hard work, creativity and diligence. In heraldry it is used to represent well-regulated industry. The bee is the most popular insect in heraldry and is usually shown with a beehive.” Reading the latter it is reasonable for me as an Industrial Engineer to be infatuated by the bee as a prime example of an industrious endeovour.
Another website (http://www.polarissite.net/symbolism-of-the-bee.html) connects the symbolism of the to the Egytptian Goddess Neith since her temple was called “the house of bees” which is a well worth article to read as it covers the bee being connected to the Greek Muses etc. The symbol of the bee is also prevalent on the Empress Tarot card in the Rider-Waite deck where the empress is dressed in the material with the bee emblem on it. Here the connection is strengthened with fertility.
In my own contemplation the bee is a reflection of a structured society, where individuals cooperate and collaborate in service of the collective. Service to humanity is seen by many mystics as a goal wheere all work to the benefit of all. The bee is also associated with the production of honey… That golden tasty liquid that is sweet, healthy and long lasting which is a symbol of the alchemist striving to create the elixir of life.
  1. The bee goes to everything that is good (the flowers) , gather it and make it into something that is even better (the honey) Which is like the Stoic philosopher that gathers virtues in his life to produce a life worth living and which is giving full expression to his human nature.
  2. The bee fertilizes the flower which means the bee does not only take from the flower but in the process serve the flower itself.
  3. The bee is a symbol of creation …. the universe according to the biblical version was created in six days and the Bee uses the hexagon structure to build the hive.
  4. The bee produces a specialized product that does not compromise its quality.