The dark night of the soul 

I am faced with the beast 
The haunting shadow reflecting 
A mirror image of disgust
Ideals seem but a whim
Virtues a distant cousin 
From foreign land

The brilliant shine has gone pale 
What to do when you fail 
Was all the years wasted? 
When the self image greets
A stranger from another land

How can one divert so far
Not to come an inch closer 
Perfection a vague illusion 
The real a persistent question 
The magnifying of age illuminates
Infirmities, weakness and vulnerability 

The true self covered in dust
Getting thicker layer upon layer
Surface  texture hidden from sun 
Is this the dark night of the soul? 

What is your opinion?