A sense of lack

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In my journey through the book “Your Zodiac soul ” I have entered the sign of Taurus which seems to be much about the things that has crystalised in one’s life. The enthusiasm of Aries needs to manifest in something tangible in the sign of Taurus. So the contemplation is turning to my relationship with money and things. The question for today’s blog is: “In which areas of my life do I experience a sense of lack?”

The purpose of today’s blog is to look at what I feel is lacking in my life. So the tone of this blog might be slightly more negative than what it usually is. As a Stoic philosopher I accept life as it is and focus more on being than having. I foucs on cultivating virtues rather than increasing what I have. This approach has led me to have a liberal minimalistic approach to life. It means I am not really a full minmalist but I also do not try to crowed my life with things and possessions.

What we have is outside of our control and it can be taken away in a blink of an eye. I do not attach value to material things. As a rune master I understand that when I detach from material things, material things will attach itself to me. We never really possess anything, we borrow things and have it for a while. Thinking about lack is not one of my favourite things to do… I am an optimist that prefer to focus on what I have rather than what I lack. I always had enough to satisfy my most pressing needs and that is sufficient.

The first thought that came to mind is a lack of personal space where I can fully be myself. To be yourself and find yourself each person needs a physical space that envelops their identity. Stragnegely enough my office at work is probably the closest I can get to having such a dedicated space where everything had got meaning and purpose. I did not decide over the chairs and the desk that is in there but for the rest everything is designed and placed using my limited knowledge of Feng Shui. I like to add meaning to everything and that way fill my life with meaning. But the space is also dedicated to work and not self development. I would love to have a room dedicated to spirtitual practice and well being, a space where I can meditate, do yoga or Tai Chi. I do have my litte sanctum area but it is not the space I would like. It must be a space where I can do TRE and Reiki treatments. So my lack that I experience is that peaceful place that is designed by me for me and for service of others, a place with a calm and serene energy that invites one to experience harmony and beauty on every level. This is an ideal I try to embody in my every space but I do not have my ideal and if I have to think of what I lack then it is that space dedicated to spiritual, mental and physical health and well being.

The second is a lack of friends that share my brought base of interests. I know many people but my own path of development was a very individual path of pursuing various interests. Some of them very far removed from what is of general interest to society. I do not regret having walked the path less frequently travelled because the rewards were tremendous. Most people tend to have a narrow field of interest and I would have liked to have friends with a broader range of interests. For some reason it does not seem as if I am moving in circles where such people can be find. I had to be content to slot friends in spheres of interests, talking to specific people on specific topics. I have Toastmasters, Tai Chi people, Yoga people, TRE people, Jeep people etc. In each category there are elements of friendship, sharing and comonality. But if I can express a lack it would be a lack in friends with broad interests, intellectual approaches and philsophically mature.

Thirdly would be a lack of encouragement in my work space. Even though I am mostly self motivated and believe that our locus of control should be internal I thrive on some level of acknowledgement, especially where something of value had really been achieved. I do not need a bonus payout or shares in a company a simple handshake of acknowledgement can take me far. I work in an environment where many forces work against progress due to different priorities and scarcity in funding. Despite circumstances I had my victories and I am not dependent on encouragement but if I have to say what do I lack in life then it is people who tell you that they believe in you and what you are doing. I think I lack people sharing my vision for what can be accomplished.

So in a quick analysis shows a lack in:

• Personal space
• Broad minded friendships
• Encouragement in my work environment.

I do not really need things in my life, I have what I need. I need circumstances that supports my being and provides a space for growth and development.